October 6, 2003 - I don't even know what day it is I had to search my digital calendar...it's all the same desperation, depression, devotion, war, famine, republicans, where's our revolution? 7376 where's there revolution? 9178... 7376 ..where's there revolution? 9178 ........7376 where's there revolution? 9178........ 7376 where's there revolution? 9178..... 7376 where's there revolution? 9178 ......7376 where's there revolution? 9178 .......7376 min.-max. 9178 civilians dead in Iraq. more civilians than soldiers ...now times that by 100s..we march in the streets and everyone laughs..our own frends don't even take us seriously....our own lovers....what once was my shattered cry to be an activist and to help has become a grumbled muttering of madness as all look at me with three eyes....three eyes... i see people being tortured, mothers losing children. calfs being strung up in front of their mamas, birds spending there lives in cages, a boy having his arms and legs blown off by a dormant cluster bomb bought with money extracted from the paycheck of my shady job...i see people hopped up in their own issues their personal head traumas, their ego trips, i can't fucking fucking stand egos...they tell me we all have them...i don't think so..it's just another ploy..an excuse for your upside down issues. so fucking caught up in their own egos that all they can think about is thireselves and their superficial lives ... they make excuses for not giving enough time to care about anything but theirselves and their miserable lives their misearable american middle class lives ..by considering the activist community a focus group..they talk a pretty talk and in reality join the masses as being lifeless sick bodies of human waste sitting there doing nothing being nobody accomplishing nothing but CHAOS ......besides making theirselves a happy legend and nothing else... spending their whole lives worrying about theirselves and never sharing that worry with an unknown boy or girl in syria who's just lost their whole family after being carpet bombed in an air raid from Isreal. I just don't unDERSTANd why we americans are so superficial and try to say we aren't.... i just don't understand ............so i'm sure by the time i'm forty ......instead of finding me here you'll find me in a mental institution.....i ....love........... you!

DiCK JEnKins 2003